A Small Step Is No Small At All
If there is one thing that I learned in managing projects. Is that you can layout the whole project in mere bullet points. Therefore, I also think that it does not just apply to managing projects at all but also in life (If you think of it your life is just a huge project).
Therefore, this day I lined one bullet point. Which is to live in a non-perfect day (I found out that this is one of the major cause why I am failing to achieve my first step on improving and conquering myself). I prepared for it by creating a disposable todos, which are the list of what I will do today.
Why do I strive to have a non-perfect day? Due to my social media addiction, I thought that if I want to improve myself I should have a perfect day. A day without touching my phone, hours of studying, and reading. But when I tried to do this, it will either cause me to be burned out or stop the progress midway because I made one mistake making me think that I am not improving at all.
This non-perfect day of course is not that "social media" braggable. I spent a considerable amount of time scrolling and consuming non-sense content (2hrs). But atleast I did not give in to the thought that "I should stop this and start tomorrow", and as always it will be in a loop.
The win in this non-perfect day is not that I did the whole todo list. But I did not give myself to that "perfectionist" thought. Even though that win is small to others, I just realized that for myself it is not small at all. Because it is the primary problem all along that stops me from taking my first step in building my life.
A small win is a win. A win is a win. A small step is a step. A step is a step. No matter how small it is to others or compared to others. As long as it counts as a step it is a win.
Probably life can be a project, and probably a great life consists of many lined great bullet points.