Take The Opportunity While You Can
Another exhausting day. I waited for 9 hours without any entertainment but talking, watching people pass, and checking the queue. This is an achievement and tormenting moment of my life at the same time.
This situation torments me due to the fact that I can avoid this situation in the past. If I just waste a few hours of my wasted time back in the pandemic. Moreover, while waiting I cannot scroll the internet to entertain myself. Because there is no connectivity available. This current situation shocked my whole existence, I feel like I am plunging to the waters of Antarctica and I do not find it comfortable.
Fortunately (yes fortunately). I met this random guy whom thanks to him made the waiting more entertaining. We exchanged small talks (I pretty much hate small talks) and I kind of like it. I do not know what happened, but I kept asking him questions. And he also asked me some questions back (all questions are pretty much small talk). After he left, I realized that small talk ain't bad at all, and maybe it is just the phone that made me believe it.
Since he left, I mainly watched the people passing by (I did it while talking to him). I watched the saleslady in the department store, the people who used the escalator, the kids who played, and the people who also waits. I can't help but wonder how do saleslady entertain theirself (for I noticed this one saleslady she did not even used a phone the whole time I was there). And what suprises me the most is that, the kids who are playing did not even bother me nor there is any thought that the kids annoyed me. Moreover, I noticed that the people who waits uses their phone throughout, although I kind of feel jealous because they can scroll and browse internet while waiting. But at the same time I feel relaxed because I felt that I kind of like in the present moment which I will lose if I scroll the internet.
This is a huge achievement because I felt the present moment after a long time. Although it torments me but I am sure that is just the addiction kicking in. I wonder how I will feel if I completely dispose this scrolling habit.